It proved to be much more than harmless.

Stranger: gello
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: what’s that?
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: lol what do you mean?
Stranger: haha that’s like this i presume?
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: NEVER GONNA GIVE YOU UP DAREDORM.COM
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: well this is a big win of mine
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: you’ve been a wonderful online frustrated opponent
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i will start with my celebration speech now
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: many years ago i have discovered my talent to mess with people
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: my intelect always felt strong
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: especially when talking with other people
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so to cut a long story short, i’m here now, it takes me about
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: 15 minutes to pwn someone
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: my tonight’s opponent was very good
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: for a while
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: he had a small advantage
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but with the skills i’ve been working on for so long
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and with a bit of faith’s luck
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i think i’ve shown
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i was the better man today
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: thanks to all of the previous jerk offs who were a great workout poligon
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: thanks to all of the people who are yet to see the logs
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i would also like to
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: use this opportunity
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: to say
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: something important
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: tonight was a big night for all us
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: true football fans
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: it was
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: as we all know
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: the champions league night
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: with a great duel lyon – real madrid
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i myself am a great real madrid fan
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: the game ended 1:1
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: it was played in france
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: at stade gerland, a wonderful stadium in the french provanse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: full ofcourse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: around 30000 people
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: anyhoq
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: anyhow*
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: lyon today gave its maximum
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: a 100% of what they can give
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: they really kept the defensive pressure up on the highest level
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: for the entire game
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: although it was seen that in the end
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: they lacked mental power
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: real took the lead 0:1 with a beautiful karim benzema goal
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so this is how it went
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: ozil took the ball on about 25 metres left to the goal
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: a bit left
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: then he made a BEAUTY dribble to get rid
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: of i believe delgado or lovren, doesnt matter
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: gave the ball to karim
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: who made a wonderful double pass with c.ronaldo (i’ll say more about him

later)
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and fake-tricked FOUR lyon players!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and scored thru gomis’s legs
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: for the lead ofcourse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: he didnt celebrate the goal though
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: lyon is his ex club… he spent 4 wonderful years there
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and tagged a 35 million € price
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: which his current club, my favorite club, was willing to pay
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and now about kiki ronaldo
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: c.ronaldo is the best player in the world
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: when you’re watching a game where he’s playing
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: you need 30 minutes max to see
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: that he’s the best
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: what a wonderful dribble
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: the tendency to play such football
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: he also hit the post tonight
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: from a wonderful freekick
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: that should have been the real lead
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but a couple of minutes later benzema did his job
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so enough about that
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: let’s talk INTER
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: tomorrow, today actualy, it’s 6 in the morning here
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: inter is playing bayern
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: that’s last years final
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m a big inter fan
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i hope they’ll show class today aswell they did in the finals
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: the coach is not mourinho anymore
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: it’s leonardo
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: some do have problems with him, because of his ac milan history
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but i dont
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i think that this year inter squadra is just a tad worse than the previous

year
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: if even that much!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: leonardo pulled it together
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and he’s completely adapted
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i cant say adapted, it’s just the way he is
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: to the Stil Inter
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so that means – we play for the score, but the game must be for the soul
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m loving eto’o this season
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: also sneijder
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: who is showing his class repeatedly every year
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: bayern on the other hand
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: is also good
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: good individuals
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but something isnt good there
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i dont know if it’s the coach
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: or maybe even beckenbauer…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: or maybe the lately named defense…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: anyhow it will be an interesting match
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i think that the coef. on inter will be atleast 1.55
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and i’m hitting it
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: + manus win against marseille
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: this is my vision how should inter’s first eleven look like tonight:
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Julio Cesar
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Maicon
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Samuel
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Lucio
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Javier Zanetti
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Cambiasso
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Kharja
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Sneijder
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Dejan Stanković
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Milito
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Eto’o
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m starting to be a kharja fan i have to say lately
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: however in the cagliari match a couple of days ago the team was like this:
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Julio Cesat
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Lucio
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Javier Zanetti
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Burdisso
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Maicon
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: now that defensive line is not my best solution
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: against cagliari it can work..
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: against bayern?
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i dont know…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m also wondering when will roony come back to form
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: rooney
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m not a manu fan
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but they should give better football then now
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and now
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i will be naming my favorite players
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: BY POSITION YEEEY
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: let’s start with goalkeepers:
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: (all players count, from active to retired to dead)
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Kahn
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Schmeichel
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Dino Zoff
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Iker Casillas
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Gigi Buffon
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Tonči Gabrić
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: canizares
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: hmm
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: oh schmeichel’s son ofcourse…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i like that adler from schalke
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: marco amelia
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: ok, now left backs:
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: javier zanetti ofcourse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: roberto carlos ofcourse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: let’s go right i’m not in for the left back now…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: cafu!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: maicon… wonderful player, wonderful… i was very very annoyed when the

press was talking how bale made him a fool. no he didnt. bale is a fast running idiot.

he should have been doubled, however benitez didnt believe bale was that fast and
strong. that’s why maicon suffered the bad press. completely undeserved
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: dani alves although i hate barca
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but he’s good
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: although
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’m not liking these formations of today
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so we all know that 4 defenders are necessary
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so 4
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: then it’s 2-3-1
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: (you missed one)
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but mourinho today played 4-3-2-1
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: instead of 2-3-1
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: 2-1
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: was the ronaldo-ozil-adebayor combo
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: and di maria was like in the back three
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: was that a trick?
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: let’s take a look at the spanish league standings
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: sec please
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Barcelona 24 21 2 1 73 13 +60 65 WDWWW
2 Real Madrid 24 19 3 2 55 19 +36 60 WWWLW
3 Valencia 24 14 6 4 38 25 +13 48 DWWDW
4 Villarreal 24 14 4 6 42 24 +18 46 DLLWW
5 Athletic Bilbao 24 12 2 10 38 34 +4 38 LLWWW
6 Espanyol 24 12 1 11 30 35 -5 37 LLLLW
7 Sevilla 24 10 4 10 36 38 -2 34 WLDDW
8 Real Sociedad 24 11 1 12 35 37 -2 34 WWLWL
9 Atlético Madrid 24 10 3 11 33 31 +2 33 WLLLL
10 Getafe
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: so
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: barcelona is first for now
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: with great goal diff
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’ve decided to continue in croatian so i can concentrate on my betting
thoughts!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: ovako znači sporting – zaragoza u subotu
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: to je drugi dio ljestvice
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: Mallorca 24 9 4 11 25 31 -6 31 LWDLL
12 Racing Santander 24 7 7 10 21 33 -12 28 WWDDL
13 Deportivo La C… 24 6 8 10 21 35 -14 26 DWLDL
14 Osasuna 24 6 7 11 25 30 -5 25 WLDWL
15 Hércules 24 7 4 13 24 38 -14 25 LWLLL
16 Sporting Gijón 24 5 9 10 23 31 -8 24 DDLWW
17 Levante 24 7 3 14 24 36 -12 24 LWWWL
18 Real Zaragoza 24 5 8 11 22 37 -15 23 LLDWW
19 Almería 24 4 9 11 24 40 -16 21 DLWLW
20 Málaga
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: zaragoza je 19. ok, sporting 16.
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: kako je zaragoza tako loša čovječe
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: sad mi se ne daju gledat koeficijenti al dobro..
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: neće oni valjda ispast, ipak imaju značaj neki…
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: e brb, idem po neku hranu!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: evo me!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: bon apetit!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: tuna + cream + mayo + pickles = mmm
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i mean sour cream ofcourse
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: http://www.vitamini.hr/img/ArticleImages/6573.jpg this one
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: water or juice?
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: i’d like some juice
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: but water is better
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: sec
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: im here!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: just a small ciggi break!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: mike rowe is great
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: hey
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: you’ve been a great listener!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: anyhoo have fun, do unaddictive drugs, and play on manu and inter tonight!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: also maybe some nba, some knicks or smth
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: sec please
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: memphis lost to denver tonight!
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: without carmelo they won… nice
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: http://www.nba.com/gameline/20110222/ here take a look
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: well it’s bed time for me, gotta get up before 2 pm lol
You: ಠ_ಠ
Stranger: bye man and be good
You: ಠ_ಠ
Your conversational partner has disconnected

But more specifically, I have been watching a lot of my “TV” online now. It’s not exactly TV anymore when you watch it on your computer, but the programming that would otherwise come through the television is now channeled through my computer monitor. But back on the point, which is anime, I have found that I am reacting in a different way than I remember when just watching TV. Maybe its the fact that I’m alone and I can choose to let my expression make itself instead of being continuously aware of others seeing my face. I don’t know why it bugs me, but I remember my mom telling me how my face changed a lot when she watched me watch TV. Of course I have no problem with that, but because of how I am, I’m not one to show much emotion especially on my face. But I have noticed that I have been revealing a great deal, and I mean GREAT deal more than I have ever noticed before. When I think about being in that situation I even get a reaction from just the thought. I noticed my hands start to sweat a lot after I had come back to college from Thanksgiving break at my parents house. It’s really been rather annoying as they seem to sweat even when cold. But the sweating, at least that I have noticed has not been coming from just “being”, but as an actual response to some stimuli. When ever I notice a specific scene within the anime I watch or when I think about the scene (for some reason even thinking about thinking about the scene triggers it too) I can feel that my hands start to sweat. I’ll even notice occasionally a “cold sweat-ish” feel across my arms or legs as if just got scared or something.

I’m beginning to consider that this is a response to an emotional feeling that I seem to be having. The only real confusing thing is, that I don’t really know what this feeling is. Without trying to over simplify it, it seems to resemble happiness. But it doesn’t ACTUALLY feel like a happy feeling to me. Not that it feels bad, but it doesn’t exactly feel like a joyful experience. Of course I could just be an idiot and it could all just be me feeling happy. But I’m just not too sure about it. Another thing is that this also doesn’t always happen as a reaction to a stimuli. I’ve noticed this occur even when I’m not thinking or doing anything.

Dammit, there is just so much crud on my keyboard and mouse now.

I love watching anime but I don’t love sweaty mice and keyboards. Of course when I actually watch the stuff my hands are usually on my lap or I have my arms crossed. But I’ll notice that after a while my hands are just entirely wet. I’ve watched one episode before where at the end my hands were actually pruned. I mean, damn.

At least it’s not a Schewetty Balls problem.

I think I’ll make this new post because I- you know I really don’t have a reason.

Dammit.

I forgive you.

By the way, the Title of this post is a reference to this.

Simply, we were supposed to write four paragraphs about how our life has changed since we came to this school, Walnut Creek Campus, and how we think it has changed our lives.

General attitude, parental happiness, Little Caesars, old friends, new friends, better school, less homework. Many things have been added, although you can’t really add less homework, to my life since I started coming to Walnut Creek. Originally, I did not want to come here. It wasn’t the school itself that unnerved me, but the simple fact of changing my lifestyle. Even knowing how well this school has worked for me, If given the chance to come here sooner, I still would not have wanted to. Change has always been difficult for me, even regarding things that I knew would be better. When in an uncomfortable situation, I tend to stick to where I am, even if I could easily make it more comfortable. When I first went to Valley, and I knew that I did not have anyone to sit with at that time, I would stand on the side rather than sit at an empty table, If that table were to end up “belonging” to a group of people, it would make me feel bad for being there. So to prevent myself from making that decision, I would stick with what I know till an external force would act to change that. In the weeks to come, I would quickly be asked to sit be people I knew. From then on I would sit in that exact spot each and every day that I had lunch with them, even if no one else was there. It has always been simpler for me to just take things as they are. But at WCC that can prove to be a bit more challenging.

Through the year it would be hard to say that I could have gotten through things without talking to anyone about them. Talking to David in math has been, “frustrating”, at times, but I know it is because of the way I assume things. I don’t like to assume, I would prefer to never have to, but it kind of unconsciously ends up that way. I know he just wants me to learn, but there are sometimes I wish he could give me a straight answer. But that would be too easy. And nothing in life is too easy without a consequence lying behind it. I know David teaches in a way that makes the student teach themselves, but If he gave me an answer I could work out how it got to that. Even though I already knew most of the stuff that was covered in my Building on your strengths class, it still was fun to work out the non obvious answers to simple problems. There is always more than one answer to a problem, unless its math. Math just gets to be unique like that.

I’ve easily found that the easiest way to get to know someone is through their stomach. Food and me have always had a good relationship, not through my own interest in the food, but through the fact that everyone else loves food more than me. From making cookies, to buying pizza and bringing it to school where everyone got to watch me eat pizza while they worked. I get to know people better and they learn that I am someone that they may want to be around, or at least recognized as a “HEY KOOL-AID!” type of person. The person that will usually have something with them that you want, and can just call on them for. Last year at Valley, I made cookies to represent something specific for science as part of a project. But I had the idea to make cookies the next week and bring them so school and see what happens. Everyone wanted them. I find it easier to do things that make others happy than to do things that make me happy. Plus, making others happy, makes me happy. I think I can learn to live with that. Actually, I guess that means that it takes the same effort to make myself happy than to make someone else happy. Even people I didn’t know would notice and ask if they could have some. Whereas on the other side of that, if someone else brought food in, and I didn’t know them, asking them for it would never happen. I wouldn’t want to intrude on their breakfast/lunch/mid lunch/snack/feast or what have you.

A coagulation of what that wall of text can be summarized into would be simply: “Being at Walnut Creek Campus has made me more comfortable in social situations”. I would tend to think that that would be a big improvement and something my parents and teachers have wanted me to do. I’ve never had that part of me that just says, I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH SOMEONE. I’ve always been content with where I am at the time. But being together with less new, because older makes it sound like their age is older, friends has made me do somethings that I normally wouldn’t have done.

Also, CJ’s classes were great, so were Lynn’s, Tony’s, Ted’s, David’s, and Shantel’s(spelling) even if I didn’t have her for a class except DnD club.

[Youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EvWh6PMi9Ek]

I don’t know, I just think it’s funny.

It’s not very pleasant.

I expected more from Morphine and Vicodin. But, eh, I guess I just react differently.

PEZ…

Hmmmmmmm….

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…

Hmm..

Meh.

I always seem to have problems making the simplest of comments.

Woot.